two steps forward one step back

Don't know if anyone has ever heard this saying, but it sure was true for me last night.  Did all the measurements for the drywall last night, took down the remaining beams over the alter area, and then I pipe up and say to the guys... "I've been hearing water running and I can't figure out where it is coming from".  I was hearing it while in the downstairs bathroom.  I turned off both the upstairs toilet and then listened... Turned off the downstairs toilet and then listened...  Then got distracted and forgot...  So, the guys listened and followed the sound to the basement and then YIKES what do I find out... The basement is full of water...  The old hot water heater has burst its  bubble...  Water is spraying out like a hose and the basement is full of water up to the first step.  Sooooo Jeff and Dale, the amazing guys that they are, beat on the water heater (that's what it sounded like from upstairs...) and then plugged the hole, then got a sump pump from Dales house and plugged it here to move the water from the large hole in the middle of the basement to the area where my sump pump is...  What a mess...  BUT~it is now almost dry and I will be more aware to not get distracted and follow the noises that I hear until I figure out what they are.  Thanks Universe... done with that lesson... don't need it again!

Why

As I was having a conversation with my dear friend Corbie about my new tattoo, she asked me why on the thigh...  I felt kindof silly telling her my thoughts and reasons, but did anyway.  AND since she didn't laugh hysterically I thought I would share with you also...  The reason I chose the thigh was because even though I spend much of my waking time in spirit land, I come back to ego land and see flaws in my physical body just like most of the women (and some men) I have talked to do.  And, one of my "tapes" that I have been and AM getting rid of is "thunder thighs".  Ya' know the thing someone says to you when you are, oh lets say, starting puberty and your body is changing and words are so powerful and "stick" with us (not just in our minds, but in our cells).  So, everytime I look at my tattoo, I hear how beautiful my legs are and what a fine piece of artwork adorns my oh so beautiful leg.  This is working for me!  I still sometimes see "thunder thighs" especially when I put on my jeans right out of the dryer, but it is getting less and less. This is also a gift of aging, seeing things and ourselves so much clearer and getting rid of the muck that has been the gift from our parents, siblings, society, media, etc...

I hope today you take some time and remind yourself how beautiful and amazing you are!  Because its true!

Long walks and great talks

I have found that during long walks I have some of my best conversations and ideas.  I think of it this way...  To be creative you need to have "space" in your life and walking gives me that feeling of time expanded... If you are trying to figure out something in your life or just add more space, try taking a long walk~ and if you can do it with a dear friend it is even sweeter!  

Thanks be to (whatever word describes your higher power...)!!!

New tattoo finished! What symbolism!

Here it is... A true test of mind over matter...  

Breathe, Breathe, Breathe!

Information and Understand

Sanctuary: A place of refuge and safety! My intention with The Sanctuary here is to create the space right here in Groton to help with understanding of cultures, faiths and paths to wellness that may or may not necessarily be "the norm". All offerings based on Love and Do No Harm will be honored here! So, if you are interested in learning something new, let me know... I'll do my best to setup a workshop or find an experienced teacher to come here!

Calling Hours, What a torturous ritual

Tonight I went to calling hours for the husband of an amazing woman whom I have had the pleasure of calling friend.  They were married 51 years and as I stood in line witnessing the procession of folks paying their respects I was wondering who is this type of event for?  Surely not for the one who has lost a loved one and is left behind...  I wonder also why in America we find it necessary to do this ritual.  To have to stand up for HOURS and shake hands or hug people you may not even know, AND to be "strong" and hold it together when all you may want to do is scream and cry and sleep is just beyond me.  I went with my dear friend who lost her daughter a few years ago and she described it to me like this:  You see the people, you don't remember who was there (maybe a few but not many), its like a sea, just keeps coming and you keep wishing for it to end so you can go home crawl into bed and start the process of "living" again - even though life will never be the same...  So tonight I send love and hope to my friend who is grieving and pray that spirit is gentle with her.  Sleep well all and remember to tell everyone in your life that you love them, because you just never know when you won't be able to anymore...

Alter is Open

I am so very grateful to Dale and Jeff for all of their hard work last night.  They worked so well together!  It was fun watching (I did try some manual labor, but ended up being more in the way, so became the gofer...).  The original alter is opened up and the dreams are coming to life!!