Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Getting acclimated

Amazing how the Universe Works... Within 3 weeks I manifested a new home (which was MADE FOR ME!), new massage space almost renovated and ready for clients, a beautiful country setting for my dogs to run and play, and peace that passes understanding...

I am unpacking with intentionality, and making sure that everything has a place that feels right and fits.

I am continuing to process the death of a dream, a relationship, a family, a business partnership, a large financial investment and a future that seemed pretty set... I feel like I am a strong person and handle life as it comes, but I find myself having memories seep into my thoughts. I continue to state my mantra "I forgive you and I forgive me for getting stuck in the process of change and for not being able to see each other clearly"... Mostly that helps, but at this moment I am still confused. Confused at how someone can go from one day being in love, planning classes together, talking about building onto the property, buying t-shirts for a business ($$$), and co-parenting, to the next day not wanting to be in a relationship and asking me to leave "our" home (which of course he said all the time was ours, but in reality even though I renovated it, it was his) by July. Is there someone else? What changed? How will I be reimbursed for my investment, etc.... Questions that I may never have the answers to. Ahh, the unknown.

The unknown. That really is what life is all about, right? We never really know someone elses heart, Their thoughts, their reality do we? All I can do for myself is to practice not taking it personally, to allow the hurt to be felt so that it can be released, and to be thankful for the lessons.

Moving forward consciously aware of the process and filling my heart with gratitude. It is the only way ... The only way ... the only way....

Tuesday, May 17, 2011


I have handed myself an amazing gift. The gift of learning how to love unconditionally when someone else is unable or unwilling to accept it. Love doesn't have strings. It doesn't keep track. It is an energy that when you learn how to stay in the flow of it can heal all wounds, can make all things bearable, can fill your heart over and over again so that you see your blessings instead of your challenges. I am so grateful ~ for life... for love... and for you!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Transitioning with Love

I have once again been given the opportunity to practice staying grounded and centered in a time of chaos... My life is changing once again. The partner I have been with for the past 2 years and who I planned a future with is now separating from the dream. Fortunately we are both being kind and trusting the process of transition. I never know what good will come from challenges, but I always trust that it is for my highest good and for the highest good of all concerned. With that said, I am human and I am feeling the separation both physically and emotionally, and I am so grateful that I have tools in my toolbag to help me through it. May all others who experience great change in our upcoming times of world change also have tools and be searching, like me (but in their own way) for the high road always...

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Little things

Like most people I have periods in my life where I am learning and growing more than other times. During my growth periods I find that my mind is often re-thinking over and over and over events and conversations and choices. These thoughts seem to penetrate my conscious mind a lot lately. I have been practicing letting go, bringing my attention back to my breath and staying in the present moment by noticing the beauty in each moment, the gifts that are available to all like air, water, the trees, the crickets, the frogs, and on and on... I know that this is a growth period for me because when I am vibrationally getting ready to change, my mind thinks it will put lots of other thoughts in to my awareness so that I get stuck in the muck and remain prisoner to it. That's what happens to lots of folks (me too sometimes), we get stuck in the muck. Instead of attempting to figure things out I am letting things happen, I am practicing remembering ~ that we are all one. That we are all one does mean that we allow others to harm us or that we accept uncomfortableness in our homes or communities, it means that by standing in my own truth with love in my heart I am able to say No, or That doesn't work for me, or Yes without attachment to the other persons opinions clouding my own.
So when the little things start to be big things, I know that its time to stop, breath and smell the roses so that my heart leads and my mind takes a back seat!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

In the end only kindness matters

I have been listening to the song Hands by Jewel and it brings up so many wonderings for me. I feel like sometimes I get caught in the being of "only kindness matters" and then forget that it doesn't mean that someone can speak to me unkindly, or use words or "jokes" that make me uncomfortable, or bully me because they have not be taught to respect others unless I allow it. If I don't speak up and let someone know that I am not okay with a situation, then how can I expect it to change? People treat us how WE TEACH them to treat us with our response to them. And if we don't stand up when we see someone else being treated unkindly, then we are just as much at fault as the perpetrator of the unkindness. Please Please Please folks, speak ~ with love, with respect, with kindness toward yourself and others. Its the only way we have a chance to make it through the changes that are happening in our world. Words to think about by Jewel:

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear

Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing

My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands