Wednesday, July 29, 2009

two steps forward one step back

Don't know if anyone has ever heard this saying, but it sure was true for me last night.  Did all the measurements for the drywall last night, took down the remaining beams over the alter area, and then I pipe up and say to the guys... "I've been hearing water running and I can't figure out where it is coming from".  I was hearing it while in the downstairs bathroom.  I turned off both the upstairs toilet and then listened... Turned off the downstairs toilet and then listened...  Then got distracted and forgot...  So, the guys listened and followed the sound to the basement and then YIKES what do I find out... The basement is full of water...  The old hot water heater has burst its  bubble...  Water is spraying out like a hose and the basement is full of water up to the first step.  Sooooo Jeff and Dale, the amazing guys that they are, beat on the water heater (that's what it sounded like from upstairs...) and then plugged the hole, then got a sump pump from Dales house and plugged it here to move the water from the large hole in the middle of the basement to the area where my sump pump is...  What a mess...  BUT~it is now almost dry and I will be more aware to not get distracted and follow the noises that I hear until I figure out what they are.  Thanks Universe... done with that lesson... don't need it again!

Saturday, July 25, 2009


As I was having a conversation with my dear friend Corbie about my new tattoo, she asked me why on the thigh...  I felt kindof silly telling her my thoughts and reasons, but did anyway.  AND since she didn't laugh hysterically I thought I would share with you also...  The reason I chose the thigh was because even though I spend much of my waking time in spirit land, I come back to ego land and see flaws in my physical body just like most of the women (and some men) I have talked to do.  And, one of my "tapes" that I have been and AM getting rid of is "thunder thighs".  Ya' know the thing someone says to you when you are, oh lets say, starting puberty and your body is changing and words are so powerful and "stick" with us (not just in our minds, but in our cells).  So, everytime I look at my tattoo, I hear how beautiful my legs are and what a fine piece of artwork adorns my oh so beautiful leg.  This is working for me!  I still sometimes see "thunder thighs" especially when I put on my jeans right out of the dryer, but it is getting less and less. This is also a gift of aging, seeing things and ourselves so much clearer and getting rid of the muck that has been the gift from our parents, siblings, society, media, etc...
I hope today you take some time and remind yourself how beautiful and amazing you are!  Because its true!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Long walks and great talks

I have found that during long walks I have some of my best conversations and ideas.  I think of it this way...  To be creative you need to have "space" in your life and walking gives me that feeling of time expanded... If you are trying to figure out something in your life or just add more space, try taking a long walk~ and if you can do it with a dear friend it is even sweeter!  
Thanks be to (whatever word describes your higher power...)!!!

Friday, July 17, 2009

New tattoo finished! What symbolism!

Here it is... A true test of mind over matter...  
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Information and Understand

Sanctuary: A place of refuge and safety! My intention with The Sanctuary here is to create the space right here in Groton to help with understanding of cultures, faiths and paths to wellness that may or may not necessarily be "the norm". All offerings based on Love and Do No Harm will be honored here! So, if you are interested in learning something new, let me know... I'll do my best to setup a workshop or find an experienced teacher to come here!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Calling Hours, What a torturous ritual

Tonight I went to calling hours for the husband of an amazing woman whom I have had the pleasure of calling friend.  They were married 51 years and as I stood in line witnessing the procession of folks paying their respects I was wondering who is this type of event for?  Surely not for the one who has lost a loved one and is left behind...  I wonder also why in America we find it necessary to do this ritual.  To have to stand up for HOURS and shake hands or hug people you may not even know, AND to be "strong" and hold it together when all you may want to do is scream and cry and sleep is just beyond me.  I went with my dear friend who lost her daughter a few years ago and she described it to me like this:  You see the people, you don't remember who was there (maybe a few but not many), its like a sea, just keeps coming and you keep wishing for it to end so you can go home crawl into bed and start the process of "living" again - even though life will never be the same...  So tonight I send love and hope to my friend who is grieving and pray that spirit is gentle with her.  Sleep well all and remember to tell everyone in your life that you love them, because you just never know when you won't be able to anymore...

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Alter is Open

I am so very grateful to Dale and Jeff for all of their hard work last night.  They worked so well together!  It was fun watching (I did try some manual labor, but ended up being more in the way, so became the gofer...).  The original alter is opened up and the dreams are coming to life!!  

Tuesday, July 7, 2009


We are all in relationship, whether it be to ourselves, our partners, our parents and siblings, our communities, and our world.  I have been reminded of how fortunate I have been in this area of my life.  I have lived many "lives" in this one lifetime and so many relationships that have been learning experiences and growing tools given to me for my highest good to get me where I need to go/be.  So as I hear so many folks talking about how they are suffering (and they are truly suffering from choices and desires left unmet) I want to take this time to be grateful.  Grateful for the challenges I have been through and grateful for the love and kindnesses I have received, and grateful most of all of for the gift of spirit that has been planted in my heart!  Yeah!

Monday, July 6, 2009

words of wisdom from Chief Dan George

This quote is in the front of one of my favorite books, which I reference OFTEN!  The book is called "Animal Speak" by Ted Andrews.  

"If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and then you will know each other.  If you do not talk to them, you will not know them and what you do not know you will fear.  What one fears, one destroys" by  Chief Dan George.

I ask that you take this quote one step further.  Insert anything or anyone's name that you are afraid of in the place where the reference to Animal is.  If we can practice this way of thinking and being we will learn to understand one another and we will not fear.  We will not fear another's beliefs, culture, race, ideas, ways of being, etc.  Once we can understand each other we can begin to dialogue about ways that we are the same.  The desires that we all have to be joyful in our hearts and minds.  The needs that we have as we walk upon this earth.  And, if you can try to remember that what we fear we destroy (that is just human nature - been ingrained in us, programmed for many years, and at one time it served our species well, but now it just creates hate and negativity) then by opening up and trying to understand and talk to one another we can begin to heal, our hearts and our world.  Peace be with you!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Full Moon July 7

I have been paying attention to my energy level and the weather and the moon... Very interesting. For the past two weeks, on the days it rained (and it rained ALOT) I was exhausted.  Tried everything to increase my energy.  Connected my chakras, did ARCH self treatments, prayed, took lots of Emergen-C, ate lots of green veggies and not much sugar, and still I just couldn't seem to ramp it up...  I also listened to everyone around me.  Seemed like everyone (and I know that's a large percentage and I may be exaggerating a bit by saying everyone but...) was feeling the same way.  

Now the last few days that it has been sunny and as the full moon approaches, I find I have LOTS of energy...  Energy to host a party, clean the house, walk for miles, sing, dance, and laugh...  I am looking forward to the full moon so that I can dance under the stars by the bonfire and keep up this divine energy surge that I have been so fortunate to be feeling.  I am hopeful that you all take advantage of this gift of the moon too!  Absorb the sun's rays, and dance till the vibration is markedly up a notch!!  Cheers!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Red Sky Prophecy and more

I had a dream last night that was very intense.  When I awoke my heart was racing like I had been running and I felt like the dream had been real.  Here it is:  I am sitting at a picnic table in a beautiful field with all those who I love very close, other people out in the field and I could hear cows and horses in the background.  As we are eating at the table, the sky turns RED and I turn around and the sky is filled with airplanes.  They are coming toward us and I grad the baby sitting next to me and we (all those at the picnic table) run for the woods.  We get into the woods and come to a place in the forrest that has a pine needle floor and we have created an underground hide away.  We lift the floor of the forrest and go into the earth.  Then I wake up abruptly.
When I shared this dream with my friend Kat, she was shocked.  She said it sounded like the Red Sky Prophecy.  I was unsure of what she was talking about, so she sent me info...  Wow, quite right on with my dream...  If you get the chance, look it up on the web. Would love your input.

On another note, Sara and I did our video for extreme home makeover yesterday.  It was fun, but awkward.  Sara made me leave the room when she was doing her interview.  BUT, I get to see it today.  I think if nothing else it will be a keepsake for us, and I can look it over when I'm old and gray and remember...